I have had a lot bouncing around in my head that I wanted to write about for the last couple days. Of course, now that I find the time, I can't remember what it was....how annoying.
I guess I'll just write about where I am at right now. Back in January I started going back to a Bible study group that I had been apart of before Journey was born. I took a year off once I had her because I couldn't bring her to the group and I wasn't ready to take her to the child care, summer time and nap schedules. Lots of excuses, but I am glad to be back.
I have never been a very open, friendly person and I have been feeling challenged to work on that area in my life. Both Aspen and Journey are very friendly and love to say "hi" to everyone who walks by us in the store, all the cashiers, neighbors, etc. My natural reaction to those situations is to ignore people and just get the job done. It's horrible and dumb, but I have the hardest time making eye contact with people. I'm sure it is rooted in insecurity. But it is something I don't want to model for my kids and hopefully won't pass down to them.
So when I am at the store, I am purposefully making eye contact with the cashiers and trying to remember to be friendly. I feel dumb that it is even a tough thing for me, but I have to start somewhere. I just pray that someday God will take my weakness and make it a strength.
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Dear, sweet Erika. I have missed you. Your kids look amazingly like you and Mark, a little of each. Was thrilled to come across your blogsite link on Jen Powell's blog. What a fun circle of bloggers!
About the eye contact issue, I'm so proud of you for being brave enough to write about your challenges. God has helped me with similar "interpersonal" issues. Though your struggles are with strangers, mine are with friends. As you would best know about me, I have a hard time maintaining friendships through the years. I get sidetracked easily. Tate has the amazing gift of keeping friendships that last a lifetime, actually staying closely involved even across many miles. I hope to learn to make necessary changes and hope to start with you and me. If you're willing. Keep up the terrific work on bettering yourself. Please bring those beautiful children over for a visit!
Question: What Bible study are you into? Would love to hear about it. God Bless you Wildes!
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