Before I start, I must note that Mark left last night to go fishing today.
Most of today was actually a great day with the kids. Teague slept all night from 6:30pm - 6am. I fed him then he went back to sleep till 7:30. I forced myself to stay up after feeding him, made coffee and read my bible until Journey joined me around 7. I made her some tea and we had sometime together until 7:30 when then rest of the kids woke up. I made some amazing scones (something I haven't done in a LONG time), and Michelle came over for the morning. The kids played really well together. After naps we went to the library, and the kids again played really well while I talked to Christina while getting dinner together.
Things went downhill with Aspen when we started eating dinner. There was some major drama with where he wanted to sit which, long story short, ended in him going to bed just after 6pm. Drama for sure, but I didn't really think much of it. Seems normal to have at least one kid have some kind of a problem per night, I guess, although maybe not quite this big. As I started cleaning up, the neighbors came out for their dinner and commented on the drama that had unfolded minutes earlier. Umm yeah, embarrassing! But I still didn't think too much and acknowledged it and said that Aspen was already in bed as a consequence... Rest of the evening normal, actually pretty good now that I only had 3 kids to deal with, haha
Things went downhill with Aspen when we started eating dinner. There was some major drama with where he wanted to sit which, long story short, ended in him going to bed just after 6pm. Drama for sure, but I didn't really think much of it. Seems normal to have at least one kid have some kind of a problem per night, I guess, although maybe not quite this big. As I started cleaning up, the neighbors came out for their dinner and commented on the drama that had unfolded minutes earlier. Umm yeah, embarrassing! But I still didn't think too much and acknowledged it and said that Aspen was already in bed as a consequence... Rest of the evening normal, actually pretty good now that I only had 3 kids to deal with, haha
Well, fast forward a couple hours. I'm at the store, Amelia is babysitting, and I get a call from Katie (our next door neighbor). She was wondering if Mark was out of town....umm, yes....? Well, they were wondering if they could have us over tomorrow night for dinner... We could get take out.... The kids could play, and we could relax...
SO nice. And SO humiliating, embarrassing at the same time.
Oh gosh, They heard the whole thing! The entire, drawn out, 2 year old style fit he had thrown, complete with crying, screaming, begging, more crying and screaming....
Oh gosh, they hear everything...!
On this hill, there is no privacy...
There is no front because they hear you at your worst. Like, literally, they ONLY hear you at your worst...
Dear God, I'm so embarrassed and ashamed. They have invited us over because they feel sorry for me! They want to take some burden off of me for dinner time. I am that person! I am that haggard, over whelmed mom in their eyes!!
Can you say humbled?? Cause I am. They see that Mark has been gone for a few nights, and they feel bad for me....
There are no words. Just freaking embarrassed and humbled.
Thankfully, I had scheduled Amelia to babysit after Teague went to bed. I had planned on going to the mall and doing some shopping, and then maybe stopping somewhere for a drink if I had time. After getting the call from Katie, I was so embarrassed about the whole night, that I was not in the mood for shopping anymore, haha. I ended up at Caldera House to have a beer, and they happended to be having live Irish music going on. It was a great way to unwind, write this, and reflect on the night. I didn't want to go home!
Thankfully, I had scheduled Amelia to babysit after Teague went to bed. I had planned on going to the mall and doing some shopping, and then maybe stopping somewhere for a drink if I had time. After getting the call from Katie, I was so embarrassed about the whole night, that I was not in the mood for shopping anymore, haha. I ended up at Caldera House to have a beer, and they happended to be having live Irish music going on. It was a great way to unwind, write this, and reflect on the night. I didn't want to go home!
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